My first year of being HOME FOR THE HOLIDAYS!!
Y'all - the past few months have been insane. With celebrating 1 year of entrepreneurship, working my ass off, and getting involved in a new church I am running around like a Chicken with my head cut off. Sorry - graphic I know but that is exactly how I am feeling. Let's catch up section by section!
WORK
I tell you what - this entrepreneurship stuff is not for the weak. I am exhausted half the time; have the hardest time keeping my books together, my accountant was infuriating, and somehow I am always running low on cash! LIKE EXPLAIN HOW THIS HAPPENS lol.
Now don't get me wrong - I know I do all of this to myself, but JESUS TAKE THE WHEEL. I have recently become very big on, "Not my problem - i'll hit you back later to see how you solved that" because transparently - some things are literally not my problem. I have been struggling with setting work life boundaries for YEARS and it has been catching up with me recently. With the exhaustion of dealing with too much from other people to getting aggravated at the smallest things. I even told my therapist that October is just not my month and she laughed and said, "Well maybe we should give people a warning as we step into October moving forward." For some reason that month always slams into me. I have a breakup, or business trouble, or a friend breakup, or money problems. It is quite literally always something. So October is officially "A fall month" it does not exist and is a social construct that I am choosing to ignore.
Everything else about work is going great though. I have been working on new programs, new packages, and new opportunities! All in all - I am doing great over here - at least for now lol.
SOCIALS
Ya girl is making friends! I am actually hosting a Friendsgiving this Thanksgiving and I am super excited about it. I have been working on the menu for the past week and it has been interesting to say the least. I am a good cook - do not get me wrong, but I am not someone who is overjoyed to cook. However, one thing I do love is a party. So, we are turning up this Holiday season!!
CHURCH
I have recently been attending mass again! EEK!!! I have been away from the church for around 2.5 - 3 years which is the longest I have ever been away from the church. As you probably know I am a Cradle Catholic through and through. I was an altar server, eucharistic minister, youth group leader, and more. However, when COVID-19 hit I stepped away from the church at first as a safety measure and then because I was mad. Goodness, I was so mad a God - and luckily this was not the first time that I have been infuriated with him. It's alright - I am sure he is mad at me pretty consistently. Neither here nor there; it has taken me years to get back into the church. That was a major focus for me when I moved to Virginia. I told myself I was going to start by going to New Years Day mass, but as expected I became terrified the day of and used every single excuse in the world to not go until about 2 months ago.
I decided on a random Sunday that I wanted to go to mass. I honestly don't remember why, but I know that there wasn't anything pressing on my heart that made me feel like I had to go. However, I did know that I was feeling empty and aching for routine. I needed something that felt like I was being held. I had been frustrated with my inability to go, but you know when you have been out of routine of something for so long that you are just like - ya know - I just don't want to do it anymore. I got to where I was going out to Brunch on Sundays during mass, or would just sleep in. Mass felt like an obligation and not an opportunity to sit in silence, in comfort, and in peace.
When I went to mass that Sunday there was a woman that came up talking about this women's group that was starting at the end of the month. One of my focuses was to find friends, and just create a routine that I would be addicted to. I grabbed a flyer and told myself I would think on it - which I did. I enrolled and when I tell you that was one of the best decisions I have ever made! I feel like I walk into a big family gathering every Sunday with people that I actually know. I always see a familiar face, and always have a hug coming from at least one direction. Just making church an opportunity rather than an obligation is the biggest goal!
HOLIDAYS AHEAD
We all know that I LOVE Christmas and this will officially be the first year that I am spending Christmas in my home. In years past I have always been with my parents - and although this year I will miss them dearly they have been super supportive of me wanting to spend the Holidays in my home this year and truly start creating traditions for me and my little fam.
HOBBIES
We have been really diving into stress reducing hobbies! I have picked up crocheting again, cross stitching, writing, reading, painting, baking, cooking, and sketching. All in all, I do my best to not be working when I am "off the clock" as an entrepreneur I never really am, but I like to think I am. This hobby list has also been the largest reason as to why I am making everyone's Christmas gifts this year!! We used to do this all the time when I was a kid, but I am so excited to get back into it.
Also - I met my 36 book reading goal for the year and am shooting for 50 since I do very little work in December when the fashion industry practically shuts down. Meaning you will find me running, and reading just about all of December lol.
Well, that's my life - I hope you enjoyed because I know I did.
xoxo,
Josephine Meinardus
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